January 29, 2011
It has been a long time since I have "blogged", in fact it has been way to long. Time, life, and the whole thing just got away from me not to mention sometimes I don't feel like I have anything to really share anymore. Maybe that is true, who knows if anyone really follows this journal anymore but tonight I felt like writing and hopefully in the future I will feel more like writing again.
School has ended, real life with a real job began. It's been a whole different ballgame in learning to live life without Lily. When school ended I was hired at University of Louisville in a doctors office. All the schooling paid off, I enjoy my job (for the most part!) and stay really busy with it. I enjoy everyone I work with, I enjoy staying busy. Things have become a "new normal" for me. Steve and I have our ups and downs....and that is a whole different post. No, we are not married yet and probably many people have gotten engaged and married long before we will I am guessing. It's just not in the cards for us right now, to many things have gotten in the way I guess. I know it would be the "right thing to do" in many others eyes but in my eyes it just isn't the time and I guess I am really not ready to "settle down" in that way right now. The joy of it all went out when Lily went to Heaven and getting married has become something we might do off in the distance. I need to be 100% sure I guess and he needs to be 100% sure. To many other things have come into our life...again another post I am sure.
Everyone is doing well, my parents are fantastic as always. My niece is getting big...turned 4 in November and life just keeps moving on.
I am mostly happy, I stay fairly happy other than a few things that life throws at you sometimes. I sure do miss my little girl and everything about her. Not a day goes by that I don't think of her a million times a day it seems or how I wish I was at our house together again doing all of our little things. I would give anything to be watching Oswald and Rolie Polie Olie again because I have no doubt that even though she will be turning 10 this year she would still be watching her favorite shows! We would still be going to the mall, she would still hate the zoo and the aquarium, and I would still be laughing at all the funny things she does in a day. Heck, I still laugh about everything she did! She will always bring a smile to my face that is for sure!
Lets see....nothing else really to say at the moment but I will keep on typing and blogging for me if for no one else! Maybe I can get some "new" old pictures up on the blog as well....I have hundreds that have never been shared!
